27 October 2008

Resting

I looked at Oso in the car last night on our way home from church and asked, "Are we crazy?"

"No," he replied. "They are."

Ah, right. Resting isn't crazy, it's human. We're really not made to go from event to event without a break in the middle, or to push our sleep into slots so small that we can't keep our eyes open most of the day.

If you want to know about resting, I can tell you about resting. Recovering from the flu requires a lot of resting, and so I have rested myself silly these last couple of weeks. As I've rested, I've noticed just how odd it is, in our culture, to actually set aside time to be still.

It's so out-of-the-0rdinary that I know some people who've had what I had who just pushed through. I talked to some of them last night, and they kept working, dancing, driving, etc., all the way through the illness. When I first heard that, I felt like such a wimp. I mean, I couldn't hardly walk around my house with my 102.5 degree fever, let alone go to work. And I felt so tired after work last week that I didn't even make my own husband a birthday cake (he wasn't upset), let alone go shopping or dancing or hanging out with people. Sheesh.

And then, it was like I saw the change in me. Me, the girl who almost passed out in high school because she was so sick that the heat from the Bunsen burner flame made her dizzy...the same girl who rode horses for years even though she's allergic to them and they make her sick. Right. That was the girl who wanted to rest last week, who didn't go to the gym because it felt like too much for her lungs, even when her legs really, really wanted to go.

God is so good. Rest is so good for the soul. It's opened so much space for me to be and breathe and experience God's goodness. While choosing rest means that sometimes I choose to miss out on other things, it's so rich and deep and good that I can't help but think it's part of what we're meant for.

8 comments:

kirsten said...

amen, sister. i think that last sentence says it all ... rest is part of what we're meant for. how deeply true that is ...

blessings & health to you as you continue to recover!

heather said...

Good for you! I'm a big fan of resting. It's counter-cultural, but it's good (you have to say good like Jim Carrey).

Christianne said...

This is a beautiful post, Sarah. There's something about the way you write that always feels so . . . ahem . . . restful to me.

I'm so happy to read of the changes you've discovered in yourself. The part about you being the girl who rode horses even though she was allergic to them made me sad. And then glad, to know who you are now, to know how much better you know yourself and your need for saying no when it just isn't good to say yes.

Love you, girlie. So glad you're feeling better these days.

The Poet's Pen said...

ahhhh Sarah, rest is a good thing. Even God Himself rested on the 7th day and He was probably up there the whole time thinking, "man, i am God i should be doing something!"

Good for God! He resisted that OCD urge to DO SOMETHING.........whew as long as God is in recovery guess i don't feel so bad.

gabi said...

Your blog and writings are beautiful. Would you mind if I subscribed?
~ A sister

Sarah said...

Hi gals. Well, here's me, still trying to rest. Man, that flu took me DOWN. I didn't realize that regaining energy could be so slow. I mean, I can live my life, but I'm still exhausted at the end of the day and I didn't used to be. Patience, darnit...I need some patience.

Gabi, please do subscribe. I'd love to have you around here.

gabi said...

Thankyou so much! I'll add your blog to my Google Reader now :) You are more than welcome to read/ subscribe to me if you want to!

Joelle said...

Empowering to hear of your choice to rest. I stayed home two days last week. I could have taught, I guess. But my body and brain desperately needed a break, even if they were functioning somewhat decently. Ear ache, cough, and runny nose are gone, thanks to taking TIME.